Some Thoughts I'm VERY Sure Of

     Okay so first of all, I get really mad over stuff that doesn't matter. Like, I got a text message on my phone and my mom read it to tell me what the message said instead of just telling me I had a message. This angered me even though I know my mom was just trying to help but it was still a principle thing. Oh well. I got the reason why and forgave her and even apologized for getting mad.

    I had the second of two planned meet-ups tonight. This time at a locally owned coffee shop and with a slightly newer friend by the name of Raven. Raven brought a friend with her and, while I was a bit down on the prospect at first as I halfway thought I might try mackin on Raven, I found her to be quite pleasant. We also both had something in common in that we both used to work for Kmart so we definitely had some stories to share.

     The conversation with Raven was obviously much different than it was with Kara. Kara's night was focused partially on catching up and also just our friendship's procedure (meet up, go somewhere, shenanigans, she acts whimsically and I play the role of the damp blanket). The conversation with Raven was very...sexually charged. Granted it wasn't uncomfortable or even flirty. It was actually relieving in the way that I could talk to someone about stuff that would normally be awkward but was also guilt free. Mostly because I knew she was cool with stuff and wouldn't judge me negatively at all.

     She talked about how she hated relationships, and I talked about my ironic dislike despite my continued pursuit of them. Some jokes and quips we made by the two of us with Tanni joining in some of the conversation also.

     Essentially I sealed my opinion of Raven in the fact that she's very nice and I find her attractive. Would I want to be in a relationship with her? Probably not. Granted, she wouldn't want to date me either. That was made apparent when she expressed her affinity for really tall guys ( a trait that I obviously do not possess). However, if I can play my cards right I could TOTALLY see myself getting to at least second base. Which is something I suppose.

     Also, I felt it much, much easier to hold a conversation with both ladies. Thus adding a little more merit to this whole "new me" thing. Either that, or I just felt more comfortable in silence around Kara and was, admittedly, trying to talk my tongue onto a path directly headed toward Raven's mouth.

     Wow...I actually feel kind of piggish saying that. Mostly because it's kind of out of my character to actually want to pursue something physical with a lady as opposed to simply longing to have a special lady-friend and a relationship. Meh. It probably won't happen anyway. I can pretty much call these kinds of things. Mostly because I make self-fulfilling prophecies about my own romantic failure.

     But hey, crazier things have happened to me. Maybe I can make this work.

     Now more than ever,

SNOOCH TO THE MOTHER EFFIN NOOOOOOOOOCH!