new blog entry you say? why yes i think i will.

Ok so it's been a while world (the two that actually read this and my future self looking back on this) but first tri of senior year is already 25% completed and marching band is 2 months away from being over for good for me. I just read my previous blog after seeing that ms. ferrari commented on it back on the 28th of august cuz i hadn't checked my email in forever (i also got a rejection letter from my job app at Toys R Us, which i didnt even know happened) Basically a lot of good and bad has happened to me since that last entry.

First of all i'd like to call BS on myself for that post because without even having to get into Mortal Kombat with my mom or fighting what i thought was fate, i hung out with friends a lot, went to quite a few good parties, had an awesome one of my own, and had some good memories captured in photos.

I got my first girlfriend which was pretty good for the 2 weeks it actually lasted. Then again I believe that she really did have a lot of stuff going on and if her dating me made things difficult on her then i understand perfectly as i'd rather her be single and happy than with me and miserable because, as a philosopher once said, bitches dont know $#!7. It's already come and gone like a blur and we're both back to where we were previously as though we didn't date at all. Does that bum me out? A little, but not much. It does feel a bit Twilight Zone-ish but i'm not really sad at all. If anything i feel pretty good cuz my friends have been superbly supportive in both being there for me and , for one especially, ranting some common sense into me. Plus all the girls that ever used the excuse of not liking to be the first girlfriend no longer have an excuse (muahahahahaaaa haha XD ) but seriously though it was a good experience and she's an amazing girl.

I was almost a homecoming escort too. ...i think. a young lady by the name of samantha was talking to me and i brought up my breakup and she told me that she thought of asking me to be her escort but figured i couldn't due to band and asked another guy (cuz that's really what i wanna hear when i'm already sad about something :/ i guess it's an honor just to be nominated?...f*** that...yup.) i told her my band director (known as murph) wouldn't mind and that i'd ask him. she told me if he was cool with it then she'd tell the other guy she was going with me. i asked murph about it and he accepted in a heartbeat and was super excited. i told samantha only to have her inform me that the other guy got his tux fitted without her even telling him to do so (she hadn't turned in the paper work confirming who she chose either) so that screwed me over. HOWEVER she asked if i'd like to get dinner with her sometime which i guess made everything ok...idk. she has a boyfriend on the football team so that'd be kinda weird even when not thought of as a date (i guess deep down girls really do love nerds more than football players haha. it's probably because the marching band is actually successful. ;] )

When i told murph this morning about it all falling through he was apalled to say the least. he was like "that's a bunch of crap dude! you got a great opportunity stolen from you by some kid who probably just wanted the prestige of the title and decided to jump the gun to make it so he couldn't back out! that's a bunch of crap!" He was actually more angry than i was. and i know if some of the band people read this (they wont. then again if they did i'd still stay with what i believe cuz a lot of them are full of crap anyway) they'll tell me i'm dumb but honestly that's the reason why murph is my favorite teacher. i guess it's because i've had him as a teacher for the last 4 years now counting this year so i feel comfortable talking to him about this stuff. but he honestly cares a lot about his students and treats us all like family.

in a nutshell. despite frustrations that occur. my life is pretty awesome and it took some good stuff happening to make me realize that i worry and complain about the stupedest stuff. seriously the next time i write a blog complaining about something stupid like not having a social life. for the love of abe lincoln just smack some sense into me (the two that read this i trust will do just that. as they are two of the few i'd allow to literally smack me)

now for just a funny story. I have a friend by the name of Kara that i've liked on and off over the last few years. i tried asking her out my sophomore year by having a friend wingman for me and he and she started going out that same night (pretty messed up i know haha it only lasted a week or so anyway) our friendship was strained for a while but we talked once in a while but nothing major. then junior year i did some facebook thingy with one of those confession-y deals where i told her i wish we could be close friends again and that i should've just asked her out myself no matter how she would've responded. she found this to be quite sweet and we started talking again to the point of hinting at a date (as in a date. singular. not dating like a lot of highschool kids just jump into...like i did...i really need to watch how i talk about highschool relationships now hahaha but i digress) and things were going fairly well.

my birthday party came and i had kind of....sort of ....maybe...planned on asking her out. i was gonna judge how things went and go from there. HOWEVER Bethany (my gf for 2 weeks. now you see where this is goin) showed up (we went out for one day a few weeks earlier but i'd still invited her after our 20 hour relationship ended, cuz it was insignificant to get mad over) and things started to change. at first i still had my sights on kara. but kara started to get a little...lets just say obnoxious and slightly annoying. but was still a sweetie. however when the dancing came i found myself with bethany a lot more. Kara, however, danced with my freshman cousin Nate. i thought it was funny but they seemed to hit it off and i let it go to focus on Bethany because i honestly still had feelings for her and my feelings for kara weren't as strong. well nate got a little happy and lets just say he...copped a feel...which i thought was gonna get him killed but it didnt. (probably because it's improper decorum to kill the cousin of the birthday boy during the party) they exchanged numbers before kara left and he wanted to date her and stuff. i didnt mind because as of that night i started dating bethany for real.

kara ended up not liking nate in the same way. mostly because he started gettin a bit obsessive and making the 'freshman mistakes' like throwin the love word around like a football and stuff and she shut him down. Now fast forward to the north/south game. i was putting away instruments when we got back to school after the game and my brother and other cousin Mark. (who's the same age as nate but in the 8th grade cuz nate started school early. so they're both 14) well kara was there cuz her sister's in band so she was talking to me and i introduced her to mark. well needless to say mark developed a crush on her as well and for that reason had me go with him to see her soccer game and then we hung out at the mall.

later that evening i was hangin with kara and a friend (without mark) and we were talking about relationships and stuff. i told her that i thought my cousins were gonna compete for her in a joking manner and she told me that, no offense, she'd never date them. which made me happy cuz i didn't want two of my 14 year old punk cousins running after a girl whom i still wouldn't mind dating. of course she told me that due to her track record of dating jerks she couldn't date me because i'm "too awesome and nice" so like...i got THAT goin for me. which again, strangely, i dont really mind. is something wrong with me? nope. i think i finally believe my friends when they tell me that relationships aren't all that they're cracked up to be. i saw that yesterday when two really good friends of mine who seemed like a great couple, broke up. so basically i'm not worried about dating or anything. after all when i started goin out with bethany for the legitamate time i had absolutely no plan of asking her out. it just kind of happened.

so i'm happy with my life, and my goofball cousins won't ever get the girl that i've liked and may like to try dating again sometime in the future (...maybe. i'm still thinkin about it) which means that ol Daddy Sweets is still in the game and didn't die when bethany broke up with me XD

Life is friggin raw - Stephen Hawking